Why am I doing this?

I suppose many of you (Malaysians, that is) would say that I’m moving away because Malaysia sucks (or something to that effect).

Yes, that’s one of my many reasons. But I don’t think Malaysia sucks. I think her politicians suck. In fact they are all idiots – moreso than politicians elsewhere!

I love living in Malaysia. I love the fact that there’s such good, cheap food here. I love the fact that my friends and family are here, that we have such great shopping, that Malaysia has given me the chance to be in the career I’m in. I know that if I worked elsewhere, I probably would not have the same amazing opportunities.

After March 8, I thought Malaysia would be my home forever. March 8 seemed to say that Malaysia is changing for good. But I forget that our government is not the sort that will say, “The voters has spoken. We will change!”

Instead, they’ve stepped up their nefarious ways, taking over Perak illegally, making it a crime for people to wear all black (blardy hell, I wear  black outfits to office most of the time – I’m arrestable!), bribing politicians to jump ship and yet denying it – as if we’re all stupid idiots. Yes, all this reminds me of the one major thing I hate about Malaysia: living under a cloud of fear and uncertainty. Having to bear the corruption of our leaders.

Ah, but that’s a different post altogether.

My biggest reason for moving to Australia is because it’s my childhood dream. Even before I knew what emigration was, I wanted to live in a foreign city. When I was young, I would draw myself living in distant cities … when I grew up, I tried to fulfill that dream by travelling a lot, but that seemed to have made my thirst worse! (Hence my nickname, Susan Wanderlust!)

Then, literally half the young ‘uns in my family – including cousins and siblings – started emigrating to US, New Zealand and Australia. The hunger turned to desperation, and no matter how much I tried to reason with it, it refused to listen. The last straw was when my best pal told me she’s going to Britain. All this happened in two years, btw!

After fighting it for years, I decided to at last give in.

You see, I don’t want to live a life full of regrets. I don’t want to be 50 and look back and say to myself, “Why didn’t I try living overseas?” I want to try it, and if I don’t like it, at least I can come back and say, “I tried it, and I didn’t like it.”

I have no illusions that the “grass is greener” on the other side. In fact, I don’t think my career will be as exciting as it would be here. But I reminded myself that career is not everything. There are other aspects of life to enjoy to. I hope to fully enjoy life when I’m in Australia – no matter what occupation I have.


9 thoughts on “Why am I doing this?

  1. I’ve lived in Perth when I was little, and then now in Melbourne. I guess in time, you start missing your old friends & family and you long to come home.

    But a childhood dream is worth pursuing and I commend you for that.

    Good luck!

  2. Hi and thanks for your comments on my site. I’m going to be around for a while yet, just a crisis of creativity.

    Very cool that you’re emigrating to Australia. We did so just over a year ago now and are really enjoying it. Adelaide is a great city, a bit quiet but that’s OK. Good luck with the preparations!

  3. good on ya for persuing ur dream…m in the same position as u right at this moment…been postphoning my move to oz for sometimes now tho i’ve already got my visa…back in my mind i always think that i’ll be back to the land dowm under, but when the door finally opens, it scares the hell out of me…

    when u said u don’t want to live ur life full of regrets, that really hits close to home…i guess i should give it a go too…

    good luck for the both of us…

  4. I love Malaysia too 🙂

    Good luck for your migration but when you do get over there, you’ll realize how much you miss “home”. I don’t think for people like me and you, there’s no place like home. There can be a 2nd home, but first home is always here… in Malaysia.

  5. For migrants, m’sia will alwiz be the 1st home!

    But when you have kids, your priorities changed 180! If you are single, putting up with the crap that the govt is dishing out, it’s not a problem.

    But when you think about the next generation and their future, WHOAAAA!! You have to step back and look at the bigger picture.

    Armchair critics are blaming the pollies, definitely not the rakyat still enduring all the crap!

    I personally love everything m’sia has to offer, apart from its govt policies, BUT the future of my kids takes priority over everything else!

    That’s the reason why the rakyat is leaving, one way or another!

  6. ‘You see, I don’t want to live a life full of regrets. I don’t want to be 50 and look back and say to myself, “Why didn’t I try living overseas?” I want to try it, and if I don’t like it, at least I can come back and say, “I tried it, and I didn’t like it.”’

    I have been thinking long and hard about migrating to OZ and I am now finally starting the visa application process, and hopefully I will be heading to Adelaide too.
    The reasons I am applying to live & work in somewhere else are exactly same as yours… all the best to you !!!

  7. not everyone migrate for the same reason. mine, however, is quiet similar to yours. the grass is definately not greener over the other side, but sometimes you’d need to step out & see for yourself to appreciate what u have within. just remind yourself, every now and then, that you are doing this for yourself. not for your kids, parents, siblings etc. we came to adelaide 6 mths ago with a toddler on tow. financially, it wasn’t easy. and it’s still not. socially however, i was surprised on how friendly neighbours & everyone u meet in the park can be. i take my son to the library regularly & i realised that it’s up to me whether or not i want to break the ice. their community had done their part. they had opened their doors & their arms. should i embrace them?

  8. and oh, by the way. you don’t need to explain to everyone in the world why you are doing this. just those who loves you will do 🙂

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