I once said to my friend that maybe I shouldn’t have named my blog “Malaysia2Adelaide” because it may end up being “Malaysia2Singapore” or “Malaysia2Perth” for all I know. But here’s a possibility I have not considered. Could it end up being Malaysia2Malaysia?
I suppose you can call it Murphy’s law. I’ve finally rented out my apartment, packed away most of my things, given away 3/4 of my possessions and am about to hand in my “I quit” letter when I started getting calls … job offers, actually.
In a span of a few weeks, I had four job offers. Two agreed I could work with them in some way from Australia. The last job is so enticing it is making me consider staying in Malaysia!
It’s a managerial position, with overseas travel included (in fact, they’re interested in me because I have travelled extensively overseas) and a chance to be involved in an exciting industry that is growing around the world. This job could be the gateway to a possible job abroad too, if I play the cards right.
I listed the pros and cons for my situation:
Accepting the job offer
- Definite career advancement
- Higher pay means more savings, and that’s actually important to me
- Get to learn new skills in line with my experience
- Overseas travel
- I get to hang out with my friends and family
- Enjoy a comfortable, financially-secure lifestyle
- May have no time to recuperate from burnout from previous job
- Lose the chance of carving a life for myself in Australia. I will probably never get the chance to do this again. <– the possibility of this haunts me greatly.
- May have little time to fulfill my dreams – I want to write a few books and publish them
- It’s life in the same fish bowl. It’s safe, and I will never know what it’s like to live without the tether of a job. As a result, my fears of losing a job is still there.
- I don’t get to enjoy a different culture, get rejuvenated
- I don’t get to live a healthier lifestyle – fresh food, more physical work, more walking around, parks etc
- My dream of developing myself spiritually in a quieter environment will be delayed or will possibly not happen.
- Stressful — jams, possible long hours, crazy commute, feeling inadequate at the job
Move to Australia
- A chance to explore a new culture and country
- A chance to experience the four seasons again
- New friends and adventures
- A chance to explore a new field – healthcare
- A healthier lifestyle: More walking, a job that entails lots of physical work
- Time to explore spirituality
- Time to do my creative projects
- Australia’s beautiful parks, beaches
- An opportunity to battle my fears and conquer them – my fear of joblessness, financial insecurity
- Stress from worry about getting a job
- Financially risky
- Job uncertainty – tough to get a job in Adelaide
- Separated from family
- Career path may be affected; I’d have to start from the beginning
From what I can see — I’d have to choose between Career (staying in Malaysia) and Lifestyle (leaving for Australia).
I thought of asking the company if it’s possible for me to work for them from Oz (I don’t see how though) or for them to wait for me for at least six months. No harm trying, I suppose.
I know I can’t let this Oz chance go, not when I’m 2 months shy of landing in Australia. I don’t want to be haunted by what ifs!
Besides, one of my colleagues has just left for New Zealand on a similar adventure. It made me realise how much I want this dream.
Ah, I’m so torn! Any input from you guys would be much appreciated!